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GREY MATTER
The Official Blog of Kenzi Michaela Grey
15 April 2017
Sooooooo! Yesterday was not a great one for your girl, but I am totes over it now! Just, not SO over it that I won’t write about it!
Alex Yin
As many of you know, there was a time when Alex and I almost got married. She actually asked me to marry her after we had a particularly nasty fight over her making out with my roommate; the same girl who ran down my mother outside an arena in Oklahoma. I had really never thought about getting married before the night she asked me. I was so in love with her that I would have done anything to keep her, so I said yes. After that, I did all I could to hang on to her…but now I know that was a terrible mistake. I loved Alex with everything that I had and I put her on a pedestal…but that was my mistake. She wouldn’t have had so far to fall in my eyes if I had not done that. I did everything I could to keep her, but in the end that only pushed her further away…until she tweeted at me to end things and shattered me into a million pieces.
That should have been it, but I was stupid enough to still care about her when I should have moved on and forgot about her. When Jamilyn Cornett came calling on Alex, I thought it was my place to make sure that Alex didn’t get hurt, but instead I ended up being the one that got hurt because I fell for the woman who was looking to destroy me. After Jamilyn thought I was done for, she shouted from the rooftops that it was all a game and she had pretended to love me to make me pay for hurting Alex…
…the only thing that really hurt was the fact that Alex never opened her mouth and said a word, one way or the other…she just let me hurt and emotionally bleed out...
If I had half a brain in my head, I would have realized that Alex believed what Jamilyn was selling and she was happy over what she had done to me. I guess I didn’t want to believe that Alex could be that cruel, but after yesterday…my eyes are finally open. I see that Alex is just part of the same group of people who did all that they could to bring me down and now they are so upset that I foiled their plans that all they can do is nip at my ankles like scared little bitches from the shadows!
I’m over and done with trying to separate the good from the bad, because in the end it only takes one rotten apple to spoil the bunch. I thought I had it in me to keep the Alex that I knew alive inside my heart like I did with Jamilyn; but I was wrong to do that. It was stupid of me to keep that door open, especially since the person I knew is dead and gone. I had never really viewed things as taking a side before, but I guess that is what this is, taking sides.
I don’t have any hate in my heart for Jamilyn, Kate Bass, Nikki Minett, or even The Boardwalk Angels. To hear them all tell it, I drove a dagger in their hearts and because it, I need to be destroyed. Well…if that is the case, that means that I am #WINNING!
So…the lines of division are clear now and I am going to stop blurring them. I am done trying to figure out who is a friend and who isn’t. As far as I’m concerned, if you all want to hate me for outlasting you…so be it. That’s a personal problem that you’ll all have to find a way to get pass on your own. As for this girl right here…I’m done letting it bother me.
Hate me, love me, motherfuck me…it’s whatever. I know who I am now and I am done letting your bitterness and jealously affect me.
Sam Tolson & AMC
Anyone who knows my history, knows that Sam and I have NEVER seen eye to eye…until recently. Sam was engaged to be married to one of my very best friends, but I guess that is over and done now. At the time, there was a divide…there was Team AMC and Team Sam. I fell squarely on the side of AMC…but in recent weeks I have grown to see that Sam isn’t the ogre that I made her out to be…even though she had an annoying habit of dropping my name to get over…
…I guess I can live with that…but it’s starting to get annoying…just saying…we might need a 3rd match to break that tie...
All of that aside, I appreciate how far Sam and I have come and I now see that she wasn’t a bad person at all. Her personal business with AMC was just that…her personal business. There are no teams here because there is no game…there are no winners…only losers. I had hoped that in time Sam and AMC could mend their fences, but if yesterday with me and Alex is any evidence, that is simply a pipedream. I thought that I could stay close friends with my ex…but that just isn’t always possible sometimes.
I hate being in the middle…but…you guys are important to me in different ways and I hope that we can all continue to grow as friends despite our past. For my part, I promise to do what I can to move forward.
Amy Jo Smyth
Last week I had a terrible falling out with Aims over a difference of opinion about my treatment in LAW. While is wasn’t unusual for she and I to clash, it was unusual for her to take it to heart the way she did. She has decided to cut ties with me, and that’s her right. I’ll remember the good times and that will be good enough. My opinion of her hasn’t changed, I still love and respect her…but I don’t love or respect her opinion as it concerns me being bullied and harassed by the people that I work for. If that is too much for her…I’m sorry…but truth is truth and the fact that she doesn’t want to hear me speak on it is not going to silence me.
The day that I stop standing up for myself is the day that I turn my back on this sport and walk away. If you can’t respect what I do and what I say, at least respect the fact that I don’t back down from people that I don’t agree with…EVER!
Okay peeps! I am up out for now!
The Official Blog of Kenzi Michaela Grey
15 April 2017
Sooooooo! Yesterday was not a great one for your girl, but I am totes over it now! Just, not SO over it that I won’t write about it!
Alex Yin
As many of you know, there was a time when Alex and I almost got married. She actually asked me to marry her after we had a particularly nasty fight over her making out with my roommate; the same girl who ran down my mother outside an arena in Oklahoma. I had really never thought about getting married before the night she asked me. I was so in love with her that I would have done anything to keep her, so I said yes. After that, I did all I could to hang on to her…but now I know that was a terrible mistake. I loved Alex with everything that I had and I put her on a pedestal…but that was my mistake. She wouldn’t have had so far to fall in my eyes if I had not done that. I did everything I could to keep her, but in the end that only pushed her further away…until she tweeted at me to end things and shattered me into a million pieces.
That should have been it, but I was stupid enough to still care about her when I should have moved on and forgot about her. When Jamilyn Cornett came calling on Alex, I thought it was my place to make sure that Alex didn’t get hurt, but instead I ended up being the one that got hurt because I fell for the woman who was looking to destroy me. After Jamilyn thought I was done for, she shouted from the rooftops that it was all a game and she had pretended to love me to make me pay for hurting Alex…
…the only thing that really hurt was the fact that Alex never opened her mouth and said a word, one way or the other…she just let me hurt and emotionally bleed out...
If I had half a brain in my head, I would have realized that Alex believed what Jamilyn was selling and she was happy over what she had done to me. I guess I didn’t want to believe that Alex could be that cruel, but after yesterday…my eyes are finally open. I see that Alex is just part of the same group of people who did all that they could to bring me down and now they are so upset that I foiled their plans that all they can do is nip at my ankles like scared little bitches from the shadows!
I’m over and done with trying to separate the good from the bad, because in the end it only takes one rotten apple to spoil the bunch. I thought I had it in me to keep the Alex that I knew alive inside my heart like I did with Jamilyn; but I was wrong to do that. It was stupid of me to keep that door open, especially since the person I knew is dead and gone. I had never really viewed things as taking a side before, but I guess that is what this is, taking sides.
I don’t have any hate in my heart for Jamilyn, Kate Bass, Nikki Minett, or even The Boardwalk Angels. To hear them all tell it, I drove a dagger in their hearts and because it, I need to be destroyed. Well…if that is the case, that means that I am #WINNING!
So…the lines of division are clear now and I am going to stop blurring them. I am done trying to figure out who is a friend and who isn’t. As far as I’m concerned, if you all want to hate me for outlasting you…so be it. That’s a personal problem that you’ll all have to find a way to get pass on your own. As for this girl right here…I’m done letting it bother me.
Hate me, love me, motherfuck me…it’s whatever. I know who I am now and I am done letting your bitterness and jealously affect me.
Sam Tolson & AMC
Anyone who knows my history, knows that Sam and I have NEVER seen eye to eye…until recently. Sam was engaged to be married to one of my very best friends, but I guess that is over and done now. At the time, there was a divide…there was Team AMC and Team Sam. I fell squarely on the side of AMC…but in recent weeks I have grown to see that Sam isn’t the ogre that I made her out to be…even though she had an annoying habit of dropping my name to get over…
…I guess I can live with that…but it’s starting to get annoying…just saying…we might need a 3rd match to break that tie...
All of that aside, I appreciate how far Sam and I have come and I now see that she wasn’t a bad person at all. Her personal business with AMC was just that…her personal business. There are no teams here because there is no game…there are no winners…only losers. I had hoped that in time Sam and AMC could mend their fences, but if yesterday with me and Alex is any evidence, that is simply a pipedream. I thought that I could stay close friends with my ex…but that just isn’t always possible sometimes.
I hate being in the middle…but…you guys are important to me in different ways and I hope that we can all continue to grow as friends despite our past. For my part, I promise to do what I can to move forward.
Amy Jo Smyth
Last week I had a terrible falling out with Aims over a difference of opinion about my treatment in LAW. While is wasn’t unusual for she and I to clash, it was unusual for her to take it to heart the way she did. She has decided to cut ties with me, and that’s her right. I’ll remember the good times and that will be good enough. My opinion of her hasn’t changed, I still love and respect her…but I don’t love or respect her opinion as it concerns me being bullied and harassed by the people that I work for. If that is too much for her…I’m sorry…but truth is truth and the fact that she doesn’t want to hear me speak on it is not going to silence me.
The day that I stop standing up for myself is the day that I turn my back on this sport and walk away. If you can’t respect what I do and what I say, at least respect the fact that I don’t back down from people that I don’t agree with…EVER!
Okay peeps! I am up out for now!
